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Friday, May 02, 2003 i owed it all... and tried to pay it back...
but never in time... they wanted more... than this job could pay.. it had nothing
to do with them... but i was angry... i said some things i
regret now that i've had time to remember... how much i owed everybody's going which
way... over there... jumping through the mirror i thought you shattered yesterday... oh well... i'm standing
here with a brown book... looking for the face you wore last sunday when god spoke to you... and you told me about the clearly
known... you seemed so young right then... and so old... you must be
here somewhere... because i'm looking... not jumping at any rate... and you're
off... walking toward the sun next to this pearl
gray vase you see... running off the left side of the canvas...
a leather whip handle... almost lost on the mahogony surface...
in the shadow of these common white peonies... who would think... Thursday, May 01, 2003 delivered by hand... by hand... made of weathered stone... told by an old man... under a roof of music... call it sky... here swings a sweet tale... pretend you haven't heard it... call all the kids in from the yard... turn off the television... give it away... what matters rises up... heartbound... free... perfect enough along a line... drawn
from the back of your neck... to the edge of that curb... fall slowly... effortlessly... down... while breath flies out like a swift cloud... and eyes spin up to sudden blue light... no victorian swoon... this slow motion postmodern renunciation... pays the world in single bills... this fall.. and this... and this... like duchamp's bride... takes each verse in stride Wednesday, April 30, 2003 and he never finished a thing... born to be born again... and again... mornings come naturally to him... like pages to fingers around this book of suddenly new song... under the garden darkness stutters forth his moister possibilities... sun stung by noon... and a good nap dreams him in bloom... afoot again stand on the stage
and speak the words... stand on the stage and speak the words... like you mean it... like you was born for this day... for maybe you was born for this day... who's to say... who's to say Tuesday, April 29, 2003 six hundred thirty-two words slip down between the bed and the wall... how many perfect lines before sleep... gone before morning... so tell me... when the rivers roar pity and the skies are blind with gulls... what will we remember from the book of this good day... that we stepped out... that our breath came easily as we read and thought and spoke to... for... about... with... that something certain yielded to the sun... who rang that bell
down there... had better think again... we've got sad weary eyes... to look him at with... run away... find a dog... some little mutt... to whisper your blue iniquities you'll need a funnel and bucket... a bucket and a black book of yearning... let the old dog shiver at your bloodshot truth then source it simple
for the otters... a thin fish... a grinning bishop... much applause when the arrows fall... in stomachs long fatter than the land... everyone gets a free day... we've had ours... it was splendid but now it starts to rot... a bit... frightful that we have no secrets... so utterly known Monday, April 28, 2003 "in this church these tracks runnin'
one way..." can this be... don't they roll double... where you got an
in you got an out... an up... a down... redlightgreenlight... so you up and slam the door... full of all this love ... no preacher ever heard you sing it... him up there... red as a wound... talking 'bout the river
and the lamb... talking 'bout the narrow gate... you bet alone inside this piano...
he got the unsteady bicycle blues... consider it a warning... wind may blow and windows shake... but a boy on his bike gonna fall... sooner or later... listen to wind blow... listen to the gravel sing... hear it lonely piano boy... long way from home Sunday, April 27, 2003 more from a notebook one has hair piled up like a fountain one associates with known criminals one gives up one never slows down one is tied up in very tight knots
Saturday, April 26, 2003 every word is a tree... a calm pool of water attracts certain kinds of bugs... some exclamations dangle from the sky on twine... we need to buy something useful... i cuss in all my writing... i don't got it with me... and the door opens i want no one looks at the moon... any more i want that thing in the store shut up yr gay
your talk for twenty
minutes is... fascinating... but your paper is empty... empty... vacant as an aaron spelling production... empty as breath... as sand... so what will you have when you open your fist... and a pencil falls damp and silent like our own empty skin... sloughed... what will you have the capital of spain
is madrid... where oranges were invented... in a palace of glass... between the strings of an austrian quartet and a sad oud... oozing foggy pear juice... down to
red earth... today you will travel far for that moment... pay any price... come back with flowers in your ears... and a thirst you see we are all
here now so you can go off to do what you do and soon you will
have two ways to say help me i need you now but we will not come
so all of this will stop at last and we will use our time to
make a wall by this low bush here at the edge of our land but
you may come for us and we will wait for you and your sad need
here next to this grey bush that says what we have made and your
eyes will see that this is good work at last that we have done back to finish your phrase currently |