bad poem so let's not call it poetry
that word so far from dirt, sweat,
birdchirp and betrayal
you try to forget in flowers
but they bubble up yellow
absolute fragility - we say -
but for the moment, solid,
a dependable thing in the world

moreso than this man
who never understood
enough to stop being a boy -
miserable fate to have
never grown enough
and it's his own damn fault -
a preference for evasion
no flower facing the sun or fog
straight on - he's resisting
the morning dread and awake
now to pass the day running
from love that had never -
he thought - been possible

proud enough to have made something
to have lost everything
to a sudden revelation,
his own heart is rotten
with spite and a childish envy
of everything he should have done
his own heart is less possible
than dirt

There is nothing so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task.
William James

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