sometimes it's like the ocean... or at least being under water... even in a bathtub... it's all in your ears... nowhere else... sometimes it's just the house sitting alone with its small noises (there are no haunted houses, but there are haunted people)... birds in the chimney... sometimes its an inky book voice in your head... alone with my thoughts that voice is ridiculous... and i tell it so... i don't really think when i'm not reading or doing something else... sometimes i think about thinking... but mostly i just replay scraps of voices... my own and others... and wish i was a bird

i've been almost completely alone over the past week... dominic has been gone (but he's back today) and ed has been in but mostly out... so i've been floating in this quiet lake... going about my "business" which in summertime is no business at all...

i read kimberly smith's Wendell Berry and the Agrarian Tradition, a critical analysis of berry's ideological roots, present status in environmental politics, and outlook for future action... a good book... i watched some movies like Sunset Boulevard, Gangs of New York, and just last night p. t. anderson's Magnolia, which i was happy to find on ifc... had never seen it before, but of course i'd heard about the climax (which i won't mention here, just in case you haven't had the pleasure yet)... it's a busy altmanesque meditation on fate and the ways we hurt and help each other... it's 188 minutes long but doesn't feel a second over 150... i need to see it again...

this morning after mass i pulled out the old hüsker dü live album, The Living End.. it stands the test of time...majestic rage that feels like fun... also dug up a toru takemitsu disc for flute called I Hear the Water Dreaming... which has something to do with the quiet world... if you don't listen to it, it will ignore you... turn into bland wallpaper... but there's lots worth hearing...

also been playing with photoshop elements a bit.. it caters to the pretend artist... but i'm not really happy with the results yet... look what i made...

as you can see, i need a lighter touch... probably more time in quieter places...

Study to be quiet, and to do your own business.

1 Thessalonians 4:11

 

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