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November
1999

21. November Had Us All By The Throat

I didn't do anything today.

But I did have Mass with Murray and Dominic. Today is the feast of Christ the King. The gospel got us thinking about the losers, the ones who never get picked, the down and out. We thought that it's important to pick them up and dust them off when we can. I think, yes - but not because it's good for them. Not because it makes us feel virtuous. It's good for us to do this because, in fact, we're all losers eventually. So we're doing nothing more than treating others the way we'd like to be treated. It's good for us to be less self-involved. Lose yourself; find yourself. That kind of thing. I was also thinking of Laurie Anderson's haunting song "Strange Angels" wherein she keens "We don't know where we come from. We don't know who we are." (Implication being that we're all strange angels.)

What does this have to do with being a King? Nothing. Kings are stupid. We don't have kings anymore. "Every man his own football."

Then I came up here to my room to think and read and antagonize the cat. I've been thinking about this week's classes, flipping files in my brain to find something useful to do with Whitman (just begun) and To Kill a Mockingbird (just about done). We have only three days of class before Thanksgiving. In between thinking about these things, I've been reading a little in A History of Reading by Alberto Manguel and Mason & Dixon by Thomas Pynchon. The former is delightful, insightful, packed with fascinating bits, and much more optimistic than my grim buddy Birkerts (whose Readings is on hiatus at the moment). My reading of the latter, if you know Pynchon at all, is an exercise in hopefulness: it is a very large book, written in a beautiful hokey 18th century patois like this:

On southward the Seahorse gallops, as if secure forever in a warm'd melodious Barcarole of indolent days, when in fact 'twill be only a few degrees of Latitude more till we pick up the Trade Winds, and hear in its Desert Whistle the message the Ghosts often bring,- that 'tis time, once again to turn to. And, in denial of all we thought we knew, to smell the Land we are making for, the green fecund Continent, upon the Wind that comes from behind us. (57)

My guess is that if you read 773 pages of this something spectacular will happen to your brain. I'm at 76 right now. But, you know, I got through Gravity's Rainbow. I really did. And it was worth every wiggle. Of course, my eyes were much younger back in '74.

About the cat: I grab her, roll her over and rub her fuzzy white belly. She pretends to hate this for a second. Three or four minutes later she warns me that I'd better not try that again, gets up and prances off to her cave beneath the bed. Cats are so weird.

And then there's Computer Stuff. I've been trying to teach myself Forms - one of which, you'll note, is at the bottom of this page. Please try it out - if for no other reason than to help me see if and how it works. You type here, and it comes to my e-mail via the Yahoo!Geocities server.

"Wondrous Machine!" Tomorrow is the Feast of St. Cecilia, patron saint of musicians. To set the mood, I'm listening to Purcell's odes for the feast: "Hail! bright Cecilia!" and "Welcome to all the pleasures." I'll round this off later with some Nirvana or Monk or something.

I haven't heard how Mom's doing today, but I suppose I could pick up the phone and find out. I might not do this, though, because she don't need my noise. And she knows I'm thinking and praying real hard.

Yes, I do know where I was 36 years ago today back when we were all in black and white. Where were you?

{Smartypants}

Boots and shoes are the greatest trouble of my life. Everything else one can turn and turn about, and make old look like new; but there's no coaxing boots and shoes to look better than they are.
George Eliot

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