o... thirty-four years ago... today...
i became a carmelite...
The
Ascent of Mount CarmelSt. John of the Cross
translated by Charles G. Bell
In the dark of night
With love
inflamed
By luck, by chance
I
rose unseen
From the house hushed in sleep.
Safe in the dark
By
a secret stair
My luck, my chance
And
night for a veil
I stole from the house of sleep.
By chance of night
By
secret ways
Unseeing and unseen
No
light, no guide
But the flames that my heart
gave--
Led by those rays
Surer than day
I came where one
waits
Who is known to me
In
a place none seemed to be.
Night
that guides
Purer than dawn
Night
that joins
Lover and loved
And
the loved into Lover changed.
In
my flowered heart
That is only his
He
lay in sleep
Lulled by the breeze
The
fanning of my cedars gave.
Down
turrets that air
With hand serene
As
it stirred in his hair
Gave my throat a wound
That took all sense away.
I ceased, I was gone
My face to
his own
All passed away
Care
and all thrown down
There among the lillies where
I lay.(from
Five Chambered
Heart by Charles Greenleaf Bell)
posted
at 1:57 PM
A Certain Ladyby
Dorothy Parker (born this day 1893)
Oh,
I can smile for you, and tilt my head,
And drink
your rushing words with eager lips,
And paint
my mouth for you a fragrant red,
And trace your
brows with tutored finger-tips.
When you rehearse
your list of loves to me,
Oh, I can laugh and
marvel, rapturous-eyed.
And you laugh back,
nor can you ever see
The thousand little deaths
my heart has died.
And you believe, so well
I know my part,
That I am gay as morning, light
as snow,
And all the straining things within
my heart
You'll never know.
Oh, I can laugh and listen, when we meet,
And you bring tales of fresh adventurings, --
Of ladies delicately indiscreet,
Of
lingering hands, and gently whispered things.
And
you are pleased with me, and strive anew
To
sing me sagas of your late delights.
Thus do
you want me -- marveling, gay, and true,
Nor
do you see my staring eyes of nights.
And when,
in search of novelty, you stray,
Oh, I can kiss
you blithely as you go ....
And what goes on,
my love, while you're away,
You'll never know.
posted at 1:41 PM
like the falling sensation that shakes
me awake... this time of year i start... like that split second
after i smash my toe into the door jam... a sudden helplessness...
as pain approaches... and i understand that i may have forgotten
how to do it... and the fall will continue... to the splat.
i mean... here comes the school
year... i have to be a teacher again... and what if... i don't
have a thought in my head... we have all these books to read...
and i suppose we should try to become better writers... and last
night a friend on the phone reports telling a kid...
o you have
brother tom... you'll have a great time... if you do the work...
but what is the work... what ever is the work in a reading and
writing and speaking classroom... suppose i'd better start thinking
about that...
posted at 10:43
AM
Conchology...
offering our beloved paradoxical john of the cross...
To
reach satisfaction in all
desire satisfaction
in nothing.
To come to possess all
desire
the possession of nothing.
To arrive at being
all
desire to be nothing...posted
at 4:53 PM
Chihuly
Glass... good gorgeous glass... via
suzanneposted at 11:23 AM
wasting time... clicking the Next Blog
link at one of my favorite blogs takes me to...
Expounding Board... which
takes me to
The Daily
List... which takes me to
George
Cassiel... which takes me to
KLTC...
which takes me to
Identity,
Fantasy, Heresy: A Portrait of My Evil Ways... which takes
me to
Fofocas Anays
(boy, blogging is big in brazil)... which takes me to
Roses
and Brambles... which takes me to
Zoe
Worship... which takes me to
The
Nit-Picky Thoughts of a Wannabe Princess... which takes me
to... a mess of kid blogs whose design is really very annoying...
posted at 11:59 AM
this morning i'm reading
the fire-eaters
by david almond... i understand how someone could not like this
book... but why would anyone not want to... or maybe it's my sense
that this narrator/protagonist is about the age i would have been
back when the world was going to end... i never lived in a place
like shoreside at newcastle but i did live in a place where i
was young and particular in that place...
and then the men came to work outside my window...

posted at
11:14 AM
even wendell berry gets a mention in
The
Village Voice Free Will Horoscope... which is often a hoot...
even when mr. b. is not cited...
posted
at 8:16 PM
so today mom, pat, and meg begin the
first leg of their journey to the northwestern wedding of these
beautiful people...

god-speed...
posted
at 10:37 AM
changes afoot at blogger... today when
i visit
fait accompli
or
tex files i find
a "blog this" link right up top where the ads used to
be. i click it and get a nice blogthis window... BUT... when i
click the old "blog this" link on my browser's navbar
i get a goofy link with added stuff like this: http%3A//nickpiombino.blogspot.com/">fait%20accompli...
i get "%3A" instead of ":"... i get "%20"
instead of a space... SO...
i
visit blogger and find they've got a new navbar link... i try
to go to it to get it... but nothing shows up on that page...
it doesn't load... i fear it's because i'm on a mac... or maybe
i need a more recent version of explorer... hmmm
posted
at 10:23 AM
now i remember that today is the last
monday of "summer"... this time one week from today
i will have finished the first day of teacher in-service for the
2004-2005 school year... the start of my 29th year in the business...
no complaints... if it weren't for some down-to-the-wire building
renovation we'd have started this week... nevertheless i'm feeling
a crunch on the fun-time... as should be some of my incoming students
who need to start hopping over at
the
summer reading message board... get to it, kids...
posted
at 8:51 PM