Sunday, April 30, 2006
are still blooming all over ... About the same time a generation of men perceive
how uncertain their fathers are they prepare for war.
... some are painful ... some
are hopeful ...To want
to do most things you have to do creates energy and invites contentment.
... to a sleepy brain ... all
are very welcome
juxtaposition, and disjunction
and then ... Withdraw allegiance from the old
categories of Negative (law, limit, castration, lack, lacuna),
which Western thought has so long held as sacred as a form of
power and access to reality. Prefer what is positive and multiple,
difference over uniformity, flows over unities, mobile arrangements
over systems. Believe that what is productive is not sendentary
reminds me of whitman's...love
the earth and sun and the animals, despise riches, give alms to
everyone that asks, stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote
your income and labors to others, hate tyrants, argue not concerning
God, have patience and indulgence toward the people, take off
your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of
men, go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young
and with the mothers of families, read these leaves in the open
air every season of every year of your life, re-examine all you
have been told at church or school or in any book, dismiss whatever
insults your own soul, and your very flesh shall be a great poem
and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the
silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your
eyes and in every motion and joint of your body.
... though i'm guessing foucault would offer some
complex critique of walt's constructed self ... i don't know
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
out today ... all 1400 of us ... the whole school took to the
path that dom & i normally travel (though not lately) ... the
walkathon t-shirt is white ... funny to look back and see this
line snaking along through the fields ... no coyotes out today
the way ... not because they're seniors (as in the past) but because
they brought in the most money ... a few asked me about monday's
assignment to write a "pastoral poem" & i said "just
look around ... keep yr eyes peeled for sheep" ... witty
and there was
a flowering tree ... i stopped to commune & had to jog to catch
up to my group ... but i ran & it felt good to run ... kids were
awestruck as i passed ... "what's with the geezer?"
... my breath was good, too ... & a moment with the tree was worth
we were back
at school in under an hour ... where food product (chips & hot
dogs) was distributed in the courtyard ... the ground was reasonably
undamp & the sky was blue ...
and the jazzers were rockin' ...
and the rockers
were jazzin' ...
and it was
all a very good thing ...
been a little worried that there'd be problems with trampling
the new growth but, as far as i could see, everybody stayed politely
on the path ... dom asked me about the deerleg tree, but i forgot
murray's tex files
quotes me and comments: '. . . across the wide surmise . . . a flock
of ancient geese
in sunrise . . . not a single
one is angry' --Br. Tom Murphy
a lovely remnant. gave me pause to consider variance and irresolvability
in these relations:
image : thought as word
(thanks, chris ...
i don't often get to be lovely)
follows is a mess of a misreading
of chris' idea ... it's
an analogy, dummy ... i says to myself now ... it should read
"image is to thought AS word is to deed" ... duh ...
but i've never been one to shy away from a useful misreading ...
so i'll let this stand ... it's friday ...variance and irresolvability in image
hard to see 'the wide surmise'
... imagine that someone is thinking, guessing, broadly about
something ... maybe how to move into the next phase of life or
maybe pondering the motives of others ... but the motion from
this to the flock of geese isn't obvious or clear ...
if only it had said 'sky' rather than 'surmise'
... that would have changed everything & not for the better ...
but it would have seemed more 'accessible' to most readers who'd
never think of reading my fyp stuff because it's 'stupid' or makes
them feel 'stupid' ... geese belong in the sky ... not in a surmise
... and i'm just guessing that none of them are angry ... how
would i know ... (unlikely that you'd ever find angry geese hanging
out in a wide surmise ... i don't think they would) so it comes
back to that word ...variance
and irresolvability in thought as word
i could say that it was 'word as thought' ... that's
what usually drags these things into being whatever they are ...
literal daydreams ... there was no surmise ... not even after
i wrote it ... there was just that word, but ... something else
... and then the whole thing ... each and every time ... becomes
a surmise of sorts ... open to any number of 'readings' ... none
of which determine ... anything ... but i don't know ... 'angry'
or 'not angry' is bound to stir up something ...variance and irresolvability in deed
what deed ... the deed of writing?
of reading? of guessing? of being a flock in sunrise? of being
or not being angry ... ? what does it mean, tom? what could any
of it mean? i used to get this question a lot ... but not so much
anymore ... sooner or later we all get the mystery shrug ...
i've got no idea what i'm talking
about here ... but at least i don't have to pay by the word ...
they're free ... in a way
... about that analogy ...
Thursday, April 27, 2006
how it goes ... you get angry over something ... say monday night
at dinner ... it's a justified anger you know yr right and they're
wrong or plain evil ... mind-boggling morons ... fear-puppets
... yr in shock and you throw a good pout for a couple days ...
and in yr mind rearrange yr life in three or four ways ... play
out the scenes ... then this becomes the problem because a good
pout takes far too much energy ... despite all that yr learning
... there's work to be done ... so you guess they got the message
... but you don't really care if they didn't ... now back to normalcy
... but something has shifted in yr understanding and yr senses
of how to be and not to be here ... yr not the same & yr not going
to be the same ... you say ... because you can't change them ...
this is how it goes ... you know that silence is better ... & you
go there more often ... well ... i do
The continued betrayal of women
... Some Catholic members
of Congress denounce abortion but routinely vote against Network's
pro-life positions. In my recent work in a Kentucky clinic for
poor kids, each day brought lines of stressed moms with improperly
immunized kids, sick over and over, passed from one marginal parent
to another, often going days without prescribed medicines because
the parents had no money.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Q. Token ...
Flunky R. Blanket ...
T. Packet ...
Ruin A. Shun ...
must believe a poem is a holy thing--a good poem, that is."
poem ... the good poem you just made ... or read ... even if tomorrow
it doesn't seem as good ... or good at all ... what were you thinking
... but while it is busy being the poem you need, it is holy ...
and good ... sure ...
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
might say the most hurtful things ...
people do say hurtful things ...
Monday, April 24, 2006
doubt, you may feel that there's something heroic about that ...
it becomes a stance ... or you may feel a tremendous self-loathing
... maybe the former will come round to the latter eventually
... i don't think one moves easily (or ever?) from self-hatred
to self-celebration ... unless bipolarity is in evidence ... in
any case, neither option seems clearly warranted by the simple
fact of doubting ... one might just as well assume that doubt
demands that one leap up spin twice on one's right heel and toss
the nearest cat in a bag ...
certitudes just the product (evidence) of a failure to grow ...
doubts just the product (evidence) of a failure to grow ...
emotions play in any experience of certainty ... one may just
be sure ... & this calmness convinces one that emotion plays no
role ... but let some challenge be felt ... a handful of rocks
thrown into the silent pool ...
of certainty and rigidity ... in tandem these might cover great
uncertainty ... an unwillingness to consider any potentially unsafe
alternative ... challenge met with anger ...
but there must (?) be some other certainty that
has none of this ... that can face any challenge without emotional
reflex ... that can be (seem) wise even ... self-collected ...
we used to say centered ... would this orientation be proof of
a more valid certainty ... is emotion any measure of this (truth?)
at all ...
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